One Month, Two Rounds of Chemo, Three Weeks Apart - and the trauma and dramatic change to my appearance that I feared the most!

It is March 2023, and the fear and panic set in. Conversations with my surgeon and oncologist. The dreaded word I hate - chemotherapy, the realisation that I would lose my hair…

February 2023 - Anticipatory Grief - In this month I was to co host an Instagram live where we discussed the topic of grief. I found myself directing the conversation a little towards 'anticipatory grief' as obviously that was what I was experiencing at this time. That feeling of grieving something before it happens. Kind of practicing it, which is a total waste of time because you can never really prepare yourself but such is the natural flow of our emotions. I have since learnt that 'anticipatory grief' comes up in so many situations.

January 2023 - Facing the fear and uncertainty of what was to come and wrestling with unexpected emotions…

December 2022 - My life changed forever when I heard those words that no-one wants to hear - “We have found cancerous cells in your right breast!”

I froze.